For the last four weeks I was about to go out of my mind with fear, anxiety, boredom, and stress because I had no billable projects to work on.
Each day I felt redundant, useless, and completely expendable and, not to mention ignored and unwanted by my employer.
I felt so awful I even started to work 10 hour days, trying to fill my time with "value-adding" activities in a haberdash attempt to shield my neck from the chopping block.
And sometime mid-last-week the tide turned completely. A project, like manna from heaven, dropped on my desk (or rather, my email inbox) and I was up to my eye-ball in work, work, work. I got to work early (well, early for me) and I stayed well after the cleaning lady emptied my office trash bucket.
And as soon as this project is done, I will be on another one, already scheduled and ready to take over my life for the next 2-3 weeks. I'm sad I may have to "miss" Mother's Day.
What kind of a life is it where you're either worried out of your mind about being fired or stressed out of your mind about getting your work done?
What kind of existence do you have when you feel incompetent and inadequate all the time--either because you have no work or because you don't know how to do the work you have?
How can you live day to day not knowing whether tomorrow will bring rain or shine, drought or flood, feast or famine? How can you ever make plans that you care about?!
I feel like an automoton, a half-life, a zombie undead with no control over the where, what, how and whens of my life.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Spot That Skirt--Out with the Answers Dangit!
I know you've all been waiting with breath that is bated to find out which skirts were the cheapies and which the rich imposters. Well, wait no more--your burning questions are answered here and now.
The Van Gogh Skirts (4 got it right, 4 got it wrong)
For the first set of skirts (I call the Van Gogh skirts--being all impressionistic and such) I admit is a real toughy. Collectively, no one could tell which was the cheapie because great design will always look expensive.
The Van Gogh cheapie was designed by none other than the legendary, Dana Buchman, of great high fashion fame and fortune. She, joining the likes of Vera Wang, has designed an affordable line of women's apparal for none other than that staple of soccer moms everywhere--Kohl's.
Which one is Dana's skirt? Skirt B!
The Ikat Skirts (5 got it right, 2 got it wrong)
The second set of skirts were not as hard as the first. Great design is still great though and does stand its ground, even when discounted. The great Mark Eisen designed this cheapie (better known by his line's brandname--George) for the low price mecca--Walmart.
For a mere $12, (twelve bucks people! you can't even eat out on twelve bucks!) you can be the proud owner of Mark's very pretty skirt (it comes in navy too)--Skirt A!
The Van Gogh Skirts (4 got it right, 4 got it wrong)
For the first set of skirts (I call the Van Gogh skirts--being all impressionistic and such) I admit is a real toughy. Collectively, no one could tell which was the cheapie because great design will always look expensive.
The Van Gogh cheapie was designed by none other than the legendary, Dana Buchman, of great high fashion fame and fortune. She, joining the likes of Vera Wang, has designed an affordable line of women's apparal for none other than that staple of soccer moms everywhere--Kohl's.
Which one is Dana's skirt? Skirt B!
The Ikat Skirts (5 got it right, 2 got it wrong)
The second set of skirts were not as hard as the first. Great design is still great though and does stand its ground, even when discounted. The great Mark Eisen designed this cheapie (better known by his line's brandname--George) for the low price mecca--Walmart.
For a mere $12, (twelve bucks people! you can't even eat out on twelve bucks!) you can be the proud owner of Mark's very pretty skirt (it comes in navy too)--Skirt A!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Spot That Skirt
Can you spot the Cheapie next to its more expensive cousin just in time for some warm-weather Spring fashion?
Skirt A:
Skirt B:
How about this duo? Both cotton, both great for work or the weekend, but only one is good for the 401k. (One skirt is 5x more than the other!)
Skirt A:
Skirt B:
Skirt A:
Skirt B:
How about this duo? Both cotton, both great for work or the weekend, but only one is good for the 401k. (One skirt is 5x more than the other!)
Skirt A:
Skirt B:
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
College Trips
Visiting Davis with Pegpie.
Revisiting Cal with the best college roomate ever--Jenny!
The guy at Kingpin donuts in Durant Square is still there!
Over the last month I've had the chance to visit two UC campuses--i.e., my youth.
And it made me feel old.
And it made me wish I could go back and do it all over again.
Differently.
I wish my circumstances had been different so I could be more carpe diem and less oh crap how the hell am I going to get through this month.
And it made me realize that life is like a series of deaths.
At the end of each era there stands an angel with a flaming sword guarding the past to which you may never go back again.
Goodbye youth. Goodbye twenties. Goodbye forever to the girl that could have been...
Revisiting Cal with the best college roomate ever--Jenny!
The guy at Kingpin donuts in Durant Square is still there!
Over the last month I've had the chance to visit two UC campuses--i.e., my youth.
And it made me feel old.
And it made me wish I could go back and do it all over again.
Differently.
I wish my circumstances had been different so I could be more carpe diem and less oh crap how the hell am I going to get through this month.
And it made me realize that life is like a series of deaths.
At the end of each era there stands an angel with a flaming sword guarding the past to which you may never go back again.
Goodbye youth. Goodbye twenties. Goodbye forever to the girl that could have been...
Saturday, April 11, 2009
In Summary...
[Click to enlarge.]Cali's Central Coast
An unparalleled playground
Wish we were there still
This entry is dedicated to M who loves making collages and would like me to announce that his life's work in collage can be viewed by clicking on the "collage" label link below.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Unda' da' Sea
Nothing makes me feel more like a mermaid than ogling the ginormous tanks of sea creatures at the Monterey Bay Aquarium.
Since M has never been to this vaunted Northern California institution, we decided it was worth the exorbitant price of admission--$30--and I got to relive my childhood (every kid in the Fremont Union School District gets a field trip here by 3rd grade).
The jelly fish tank was probably my favorite. I was hyptonized by their diaphanous bodies swaying and pulsing in the electric blue deep.
I couldn't stop staring at the schools of sardines, moving as if one body, controlled by a single mind.
This little guy remains, to this day, my favorite animal at the Aquarium. I heard there is a youtube video of two of these guys holding hands while floating around. I'm too lazy to check it out but just thinking about it makes me melt in a puddle of too-cute goop.
Since M has never been to this vaunted Northern California institution, we decided it was worth the exorbitant price of admission--$30--and I got to relive my childhood (every kid in the Fremont Union School District gets a field trip here by 3rd grade).
The jelly fish tank was probably my favorite. I was hyptonized by their diaphanous bodies swaying and pulsing in the electric blue deep.
I couldn't stop staring at the schools of sardines, moving as if one body, controlled by a single mind.
This little guy remains, to this day, my favorite animal at the Aquarium. I heard there is a youtube video of two of these guys holding hands while floating around. I'm too lazy to check it out but just thinking about it makes me melt in a puddle of too-cute goop.
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