There I was filling out the new patient form at top speed.
First name, middle name, last name.
Address.
Email.
Phone number.
Occupation.
Wait, what?
Occupation.
Um, um, um...my pen hovered over the blank line for longer than felt comfortable.
Occupation...
Has my statute of limitations run out for writing my old occupation--attorney? Two months into being a SAHM, there it was, punching me in the face--all my insecurities and misgivings about being a SAHM.
I hesitated longer than I would ever have imagined hesitating over something like this. And then slowly I started to write "s" "t" "a" and then stopped cold.
I'm not going to write that. I can't write that. I guess I haven't made my peace with that yet. It felt too personal to write that. Why should I let strangers know about something that is still so raw and un-reconciled?
Why IS it still so raw and un-reconciled?
Why is auto spell-check telling me there is no such word as 'unreconciled'? Tangent, sorry.
This is stupid, I thought. Why am I making this such a big deal? And yet I couldn't bring myself to finish writing the word 'stay'.
So I crossed it all out and wrote "unemployed."
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