I miss going out with him--to the playground, to the zoo, exploring fun stuff. With Noah in the picture, it's just too hard logistically to take them out.
I also feel sad that Judah goes to daycare full-time every day except Wednesday. That's a lot of time away from us and he cries almost every morning--I don't want to go to Ms. Lori's house. I want to stay home all day!
|Judah poses in front of the new garden he planted at daycare.|
But it's just too exhausting contending with him at home, in addition to the baby. I honestly feel like Judah demands the amount of attention of 3 normal toddlers. He constantly wants you to play with him, constantly asks you questions, constantly requires unending interaction.
Despite all the mom-guilt I feel about carting him away, I know surviving these early weeks of babyhood is more important--for everyone. Even when Judah does stay home, I'm usually way too short-tempered with him from being crabby and tired.
We often have this conversation:
Judah: Mommy, why you mad at me?
Me: I'm not mad at you, I'm just tired.
Judah: Why don't you go to sleep?
Me: I can't sleep at night cuz Noah needs me to help him at night.
Judah: You can just let him cry.
Or after I blow up with anger at Judah, he'll try to soften things by saying "Mommy, I love you," knowing that I always respond "I love you too." That just kills me.
Recently Judah has been really into "police" clothes. He thinks anything that's blue is police attire. I had to buy him an entire new wardrobe in blue so he wouldn't fight me on clothing choices anymore.
|Um, yeah, policemen totally wear those clothing items.|
Today he wore his new "police" shirt and "police" pants and could not be prouder. He went around his daycare telling everyone about his police clothes and even told his stuffed animals about it when he got home.
I like to take advantage of Judah's police fetish by telling him that he needs to eat his "police" turkey and "police" vegetables. Hey, you gotta use what you can with a picky eater!